I’ve
been alive through Ronald Reagan, George H. W. Bush, Bill Clinton, George W.
Bush, & Barak Obama. I was of age to vote only during the last two
Presidents so my historical context of how elections have gone is pretty short.
I
don’t remember either of the Reagan elections. I remember that the guy who ran
against the first Bush had a funny name but that’s about it. I recall my
parents & grandparents watching Rush Limbaugh on television during the
Clinton presidency. Since my life was in the middle of conservative western
Pennsylvania, I was ingrained with such political leanings. I went to a
community college in south western New York where most of the political leanings
also were conservative but there was one professor I had that was overjoyed
when Hillary Clinton won a seat in the Senate through New York as the Clinton’s
moved out of the White House…no one else seemed to be particularly happy about
it. Those early years of having attained voting age I did use my ability to do
so & shaped by my limited worldview at that point & by my upbringing, I
voted Republican.
My
college years were during the Bush presidency, terrorist attacks, & war.
Though even my time at a four year college was in a primarily conservative part
of the country, I began to be shaped by experiences & the deepening of my
faith which raised political questions. I wrestled with the life issue as a holistic
one. While I remained opposed to abortion in general, I wondered how we could
support war or the death penalty. Since taxes were now a reality for me, I did
not like having money taken by the government yet I wanted to see the least of
these taken care of (that also brought the question…where are the churches?). I
don’t particularly understand the need for so many laws when common sense
should dictate one to abide by the more simple ones but yet I’d see the lack of
common sense in others warranting such laws. I grew up a hunter so I opposed
the idea of taking away gun rights but I also realized it to be absurd as a
hunter to carry a bazooka or machine gun.
I
graduated the year Bush was re-elected. I voted Bush then as well. I was
ignorant to the “third party” options of the time (I believe one was Nader) but
could not find any reason to vote John Kerry. The man ran on a platform that he
was not Bush and Bush was “WRONG” while never clearly explaining (by my view)
what he would do differently. It seemed all these people who were for the war
when the time came to take such action now would oppose it because they were
not Bush. While they opposed the war, no other plan seemed to be in place so I
went with what we had then figuring “stay the course” made sense.
I moved around during these next four years. I experienced more of my own life being shaped by those things around me. I started out working with churches (having one awful experience with a case of deception included) then added in some social service type work to make ends meet. Sometimes making ends meet was difficult but I would get by. I worked with those with disabilities. I worked with those in “treatment” detention facilities. I worked with those getting out of prison having sex offense convictions & were trying to start a new life. I worked amongst the least of these while really having little financially to separate myself from them. I cared for these people. The more I did this work, the more I worked in the churches…the more I embraced the call of the Gospel to Love God & others. The more I embraced this, the more it would influence my vote if I chose to make one.
I moved around during these next four years. I experienced more of my own life being shaped by those things around me. I started out working with churches (having one awful experience with a case of deception included) then added in some social service type work to make ends meet. Sometimes making ends meet was difficult but I would get by. I worked with those with disabilities. I worked with those in “treatment” detention facilities. I worked with those getting out of prison having sex offense convictions & were trying to start a new life. I worked amongst the least of these while really having little financially to separate myself from them. I cared for these people. The more I did this work, the more I worked in the churches…the more I embraced the call of the Gospel to Love God & others. The more I embraced this, the more it would influence my vote if I chose to make one.
When
the time came for the next presidential election, I had come to live in
Cincinnati, Ohio working in an interesting & diverse neighborhood. One with
rich folks & poor folks…and of course a certain level of gentrification. I
read the writings of Shane Claiborne, first Irresistible Revolution then Jesus
For President. I found The Simple Way to be enticing as well as the lifestyle
of members of mewithoutYou & the Psalters who seemed to live intentional
community on donations, dumpster diving, & embracing an economy of "enough." There seemed to be revolution & even anarchy in their ways. I liked the ideas. I implemented some of it into my own “punk”
way of living while also trying to pay back student loans that I owed. I found community with others who believed in this way. All this
shaped my views in regards to politics in a way that wanted nothing to do with
the establishment.
Many
poor black folks attended the church that I worked with at the time in Cincinnati.
Many of them were excited for the promised change from Barak Obama. I was torn
for a while with this election. While the man said a lot of nice things, his
platform embraced things I did not agree withsuch as big governmnet & abortion. On the otherside of the ticket
was an old military veteran & a lady with a funny accent from Alaska. Did
we really need more war? How do we care for the poor? Those questions remained
in regard to the Republican ticket.
So…McCain
& Palin vs Obama & Biden.
I
guess it made sense. The first black presidential hopeful with youth to help
win the young vote teamed up with an old establishment guy on one side and on the other
an old established military guy teamed up with the first woman vice presidential hopeful
also relatively young to help with the youth vote. As that election grew near,
I began seeking an alternative because I did not want either of the mainstream
options. I read an article by Derek Webb regarding voting & not voting. As I studied on my own I had many of the thoughts people are
vocalizing in today’s scenario…is a third party vote a waste or does it put the
more evil one in office? I called my friend Ross & discussed with him how to pick in this election (at the time it seemed hard...boy, to look back now how simple it was then). He is educated well in politics. He happened to be conservative. In
college, we had many good discussions & seemed to agree a lot so I hoped he’d
have some advice. He had the same issues I felt regarding the Republicans but
hoped Ms. Palin would be a good option in the event that McCain didn’t survive
the term. I ended up swallowing a bitter pill & voting Republican.
Well,
Barak Obama won & people rejoiced around me. Folks bragged about putting the first black guy in office. Many spoke as though he was a
Messiah. I was bothered by the idea so I wrote a blog t the time as I was more prone to do than I have been lately
in which I stated that Mr. Obama was not my Messiah & not my President. I
think if that were now, I’d probably have left that last part off. I think at
the time, I was more or less writing from a place of anarchy & belief that
what he did as President had little if anything to do with my life. I still
feel that to be true but I likely would have been less harsh in my title if
that blog were today.
I
continued working in that church through the first couple years of the Obama
presidency & lived in the neighborhood through his entire first term as
well as working with the least of these. Mitt Romney came on the scene to
oppose Obama for the next round. I felt pretty sure that no matter what, Obama
would be winning his re-election bid. I did not find any part of me that could
vote for either major party candidate. I did not take the time to research “third
party” so I decided that time I would not vote. As I went into my overnight
shift on election night, strangely in a hospital as my in home care client had
been checked in, the news broke that Obama had won…people rejoiced. I felt
indifference. I did not care either way because I did not see either option
making a difference once again. I was in the process of moving to Pittsburgh
during this time so really any vote I made in Cincinnati would not affect me as
I would no longer be there.
I
did not choose to vote again until this primary & now this presidential
election. I have no regrets as I believe to vote or not to vote is a choice one can make for himself. No one should guilt another into voting nor who to vote for if they decide to vote. I decided to go ahead & vote this time around so I voted. I voted my conscience for those who I felt made the most
sense to my worldview & how I would like to see things run.
I
voted on a Pennsylvania ballot (I know, I know…I live in Chicago. I exploited a
loophole I guess. Deal with it). On the Pennsylvania ballot it says it is a “Secret
Ballot” so I am not going to say who I voted for as it is no one else’s
business. Really, it’s no one else’s business whether I choose to vote at all
but I did say I voted already so there’s that. You know I voted but you won’t
know for who.
Once
again, the mainstream parties gave options that I find repulsive…much more so
than I recall ever being the case in the past. I find it strange to watch those
who support either of these people as they attack each other, sometimes
personally over their choice. Christians on both sides try to say their chosen
candidate best exemplifies Christian virtues while I struggle to find any
evidence of the fruit of the Spirit in either of them. When I’ve asked what
evidence the supporters of either see, the responses never answer that but point
to how they aren’t as bad at the other one or point to celebrity "Christian" endorsements as why they must be good Christians – celebrities who I would question
their fruits as well if my opinion were to mean anything. Any further attempt
to gain understanding seems to instead bring more anger & hatred from my
Christian brothers & sisters who have pledged their allegiance to their
chosen candidates. In some cases I decided to just shut up & try to avoid
entangling myself in the matters of politics. In other cases, the bridges were
burnt very quickly & appear that rebuilding may take time. Questioning these establishment mainstream candidates has brought ridicule, accosting, anger, resentment, & rejection. Respect lost. Friendships lost. Communication blocked.
It
seems I am not the only one to have experience or see such deep divisions
amongst us over this year’s politics. It seems to that those who believe in
Love have a lot of work to do to pull us together in the aftermath of what this
election process has brought. Thankfully, I have had encountered folks out there who were able to engage in reasonable discussion on these matters. They have chosen Love over
hate. I know of one who is actively fasting & praying for the people of
this nation in this time. I am very appreciative of him doing so.
I
hope that we can still love one another even if our vote is for different
people. There is good work yet to be done. We can still do it whether we politically agree or not. We are not the enemies of each other even if our viewpoints are
different. Even if we want to think each other the enemy, Jesus calls for us to
love our enemy. Regardless how you vote this time around…Love. Love your neighbors. Love your enemies. Don’t let the real enemy win by tearing us apart.
Casting My Ballot
Casting My Ballot